I have discovered that real life tends to sneak up on you no matter where you are... it was a little over three months ago that I left New Zealand and I am amazed at how normal my life in Cambridge now seems.
I was on the bus on my way to work the other morning, and just had a crazy dream-like moment - what am I doing here... how is this my life? Aren't I meant to be in New Zealand enjoying the spring weather and making plans for a nice long summer? Several months ago I was at home, with Barry and family and friends getting on with life... and now here I am, doing it in Cambridge... and it just feels so normal.
Its not new and fresh anymore... the small things that I got a kick out of just because they were different, like supermarket shopping or catching the bus... are now the norm and no big deal.
I miss people and things from home, but I'm now used to being without them... it's like I am fully adjusted to this life in England. (OK, almost fully... I must admit that I utter, "These English people are a bit weird" about once a week.)
There are aspects I really enjoy... things I didn't really think about before I left... I am actually enjoying the independence of the whole experience more than I thought I would. It's strange, in so many ways I miss being able to share this experience with Barry... there is so much that I know he would add... wanting to see things that I wouldn't necessarily want to see, but do end up enjoying... or just noticing different aspects of the world around us that I don't. At the same time though, having this experience by myself makes me feel like a real adult for pretty much the first time in my life... still, it is a rather odd way to spend our first year of marriage... and one we won't be repeating - ever, ever, ever!
Winter is setting in, and I am told that by early November it will be dark on my way to work and dark on my way home... lunchtime will be my only chance to see the sun, and I am not looking forward to the vitamin D deficiency!
It is obvious that I need to shake things up a little and while I can't avoid a routine life for ever, I can devise some substantial distractions. Bri and I are off to Porto on Tuesday, and I think that is a good start...
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Great - you're back!! Yes - I understand about the routine thingy. But I think that the Chinese are definitely more weird than the English - having lived in both countries. Yes - this travel thing is something that you want to share with your loved one/s. But it certainly adds something to you personally doing it on your own. I don't know if I want to carry on doing the travel thing for long periods of time without our wonderful extended family not being around. I miss home heaps at the moment. Glad you're off to see some of Europe. Love you bubba
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